With the change of seasons, my body has not been able to escape getting a cold. It is a bit annoying to be blowing your nose so many times that your start to rub your precious nose raw. But alas, such is the case with the coming of winter and falling of leaves.
As I sit down to reflect (for a short time, I tell myself), I can’t help but think about who I have been and who I am becoming.
Lately, I find myself looking back at the past and recounting the blessings and the gifts that have been given to me. It is easy to just go through the motions and not think about how these actions are impacting your life. My time of reflection has allowed me to see that these moments of difficulty have actually been blessings in disguise.
This might sound cheesy or inauthentic but let me explain. About 2 years ago, I was looking for a job and living at home with my parents. During this time, my best friend had come back from an extended trip abroad and was going to school. Both of us didn’t know what we were doing or where we were headed. But even in that time of confusion and dissonance we were able to spend so much time together. I was re-considering my career choices and so was my best friend. These days were not easy by any means. But as I started a new job, my best friend and I still found time to connect and spend time together. It was these moments that were the hidden blessing. I didn’t realize until later that this time gone by solidified our friendship into adulthood. We are no longer just highschool friends, we are best friends united by more than just interests but life experience as well.
So I wonder in my time, in my life now: Will I look back and understand why things had to happen this way? Will I understand the choices I’ve made and how they will impact my future?
I believe so. And I have hope that my days are not toiling on endlessly but rather I am growing and becoming someone who can create positive change in the world.