I had an interesting conversation with my co-worker yesterday. We chatted about how it is important to find joy in your work and if you are able to make your passion your work that’s even better. At one point, my co-worker mentioned getting up early everyday to draw so that he could practice this skill since he wasn’t doing that at work. I said flipantly that I don’t have anything that I get up and do. I don’t go home and draw or edit on Premiere Pro software: I rarely take photos even though I would consider this a passion of mine, or at least a hobby. But, after I admitted this fact I realized that I DO wake up each day to do something.
For the past 3 months, I have spent each morning jotting down a small poem and reading fellow writers to find inspiration. Over the course of these months, I have been excited to get up and write each moring. I can’t wait for my dreams to end so that I can be part of the wordpress blogger community and evoke feelings with words.
While I don’t plan on ever being a full time writer, the act of writing has helped ground me. So, I must like writing, right? Why else would I keep doing it?
I found it weird that I couldn’t tell my coworker about my writing. I guess I couldn’t because writing is so personal to me. It becomes a reflection of my inner self at times. I didn’t want to tell him about how I sit each morning and craft words and rhymes together. I get embarassed trying to describe poems or prose to others because most of them I know are not as good as they could be.
Obviously, everyone doubts the quality of their work but I do this constantly. The only think that has seemed to help this doubt is to consistently write each morming. But every now and then, sometimes doubt rears its angry head.
So in the end, after this conversation, I realized that I do in fact have a craft that I am practicing. I am slowly learning more about prose, more about writing. I am becoming more familiar with my feelings and how they relate to words. This in turn makes me want to write songs and sing them which is another new craft I could develop. But most of all I realized that I do not want to confine my interests to a “career” path. I do not want to make writing become a chore. It is okay for this hobby to stay a hobby and pursue enjoyment from the words that I and others write each day.