It’s been a while since I took up the proverbial pen (so to speak) and wrote or posted anything on this blog. This is in part because I have moved, taken a camping trip and helped my parents sell their house. It’s been a bit of a whirlwind the past month. Within this space, I have wondered about myself. I have asked “What am I doing?” “Where am I going?”.
Change seems like an ever constant friend in my life. But I am still surprised each time Change comes knocking at my door. “Oh! There you are!” I say and proceed to let them in. They really like to stay for a while and shake things up.
Part of me wants to blame the change in my life for my lack of writing. Honestly, that really isn’t the reason. I have been unwilling to sit down and process all these life changes. Moving forward I want to shift this way of thinking and let my writing be a place to express what is happening in my life. I want to commit myself to blogging, penning poetry and rhymes and crafting short stories.
Each time I take a break from writing, I always find myself falling back into its gentle embrace. The words and the cadence of the sentences allow for my mind to sit at ease while a world rages around me. Last year was a whirlwind and I am still processing everything that happened. My mind, my heart sits in silence and my inner dialogue rages while my outward appearance reflects a calm demeanor. I have not let myself process last year. I have not let myself process this now. It feels bottled up inside, waiting, lurking.
What am I trying to say? I want to take time to write thoughts and feelings. Create small snippets and vignettes that express what I am feeling. I want to keep writing. I want to keep this blog going and create more and more. But I have to be honest, it may not be pretty or lovely. It may be very melodramatic or cringy. I am willing to take that chance because I believe that I need this space. I need this small corner of the internet.
So thank you for reading, liking, and commenting. I do not write to become famous. Instead the friends I have made on the way have made this writing journey even more sweet. Thank you for being an excellent listener and staying even when I have lost my voice.
If you are interested in what I have been doing outside of the blog, I have been published in the second issue of Free Verse Revolution, I will also be part of the Anthropocene Hymnal and the Beautiful Struggle Poetry Anthology both of which will be coming out later this year. I have been extremely blessed to be part of these projects and I look forward to stretching my writing and my creativity even more.